This Is My Story of Struggle with Eating… How I Stopped Wrestling with My Eating and Made Radical, Lasting Weight and Health Shifts For much of my 53 years of life I struggled with food. At 14 I felt pudgy and embarrassed about my waistline. At 16 I first looked at my body size with anger and decided to do something 'once and for all' about it. Since my mid-twenties I have fluctuated between being variously 30 to 50 pounds overweight, and although I may have been good at hiding my distress from others, deep inside it has always painfully bothered me. It negatively affected my self-esteem, self-image and emotional positivity, my fitness, activity levels and lifestyle choices. It compromised my confidence in relationships and in intimacy. It eventually affected my health. I tried a multitude of diets and made many 'firm decisions' to exercise regularly and get fit. The results of both were limited and temporary, and in time I inevitably fell back into a disheartening internal battle between what I wanted to eat and what my body really needed. I resumed the food struggle, eating more and doing less until my weight crept back up to, and normally beyond, its previous levels. Each time my determination to 'get serious' seemed more hopeless than the last. It seemed that there would be no end to the struggle – until last year, when I discovered some truly extraordinary health secrets! I had used Journeywork for over 15 years to deeply transform my emotional experience of life and to awaken and utilize my potential as a human being and as a leader. Last fall I decided to adapt these potent and proven techniques for use in weight loss...they were immediately and hugely effective.